sophie-keep-smiling

19 years old English literature student. A lover of tea and trees, coffee and cake, poems and pretty things, a believer in smiling, laughing, living and trusting in the possibility of happiness, whatever life may throw.
Type one Diabetes and Anorexia are two conditions i have, but they are not adjectives.
I am defined by the choices I make, which as with every life will include lows and highs. This blog is where I chart some of it, and if you have come along for the walk i admire your patience and perseverance!
Oh, and on a final note - Millie says hi x

Had a lovely evening! And this little almond macaroon was purchased from the deli afterwards. Mum and Charlotte both picked out a dessert (mum carrot cake and Charlotte the biggest slice of chocolate fudge cake I’ve ever seen!) I admit did ‘back out’ of picking anything, but was then feeling a little sad that I’d ‘let anorexia win’, even after doing so well with the meal. But then I saw these macaroons and thought: I love almonds! So had one of those with my graze Bakewell box (yummy! Minus some of the almonds because I may have ‘borrowed’ some to go with my love mix yesterday… we’re all out of almonds!) blueberries, an absolutely deliciously juicy orange and milk. YUM snacking :) 
So yes the meal… I DIDN’T order the tuna Niçoise salad, as much as I love it! :P I decided to go with something different, still relatively ‘safe’ but nonetheless a challenge - PAN FRIED sea bass with crushed olive, caper and fennel potatoes; they were delicious! The whole dish was, and although the thought of it being pan-fried made me anxious, the fact carluccios isn’t unknown calories made it a little easier (sadly I have the calorie information off of their menu engrained in my head from during my ed…) And I had some starter bits too! We got an antipasti platter, so I had a little bit of focaccia bread, some ham, the amazing big green olives (we bought more from the deli afterwards!) and some of this lovely aubergine salad (also purchased at the deli!) I very nearly ordered a pasta dish, which my sister eventually got - she said she thought it might have ‘overwhelmed’ me with the portion, and she was probably right… I am determined to have pasta very soon though! Aaah such a lovely evening :) yes I had my little moments of anxiety during the meal with fat contents and what not, but mostly it was just lovely to be out, away from revision, eating lovely food, being with my family - restaurant meals used to be our ‘thing’, we really did go out quite a bit! I also remembered that I wouldn’t be having my usual dinner ‘afters’, so needed my main meal to be a bit higher cal than what it would be at home. Feeling happy, not guilty :) because restaurant meals are there to be enjoyed, just like old Sophie would!

Had a lovely evening! And this little almond macaroon was purchased from the deli afterwards. Mum and Charlotte both picked out a dessert (mum carrot cake and Charlotte the biggest slice of chocolate fudge cake I’ve ever seen!) I admit did ‘back out’ of picking anything, but was then feeling a little sad that I’d ‘let anorexia win’, even after doing so well with the meal. But then I saw these macaroons and thought: I love almonds! So had one of those with my graze Bakewell box (yummy! Minus some of the almonds because I may have ‘borrowed’ some to go with my love mix yesterday… we’re all out of almonds!) blueberries, an absolutely deliciously juicy orange and milk. YUM snacking :)
So yes the meal… I DIDN’T order the tuna Niçoise salad, as much as I love it! :P I decided to go with something different, still relatively ‘safe’ but nonetheless a challenge - PAN FRIED sea bass with crushed olive, caper and fennel potatoes; they were delicious! The whole dish was, and although the thought of it being pan-fried made me anxious, the fact carluccios isn’t unknown calories made it a little easier (sadly I have the calorie information off of their menu engrained in my head from during my ed…) And I had some starter bits too! We got an antipasti platter, so I had a little bit of focaccia bread, some ham, the amazing big green olives (we bought more from the deli afterwards!) and some of this lovely aubergine salad (also purchased at the deli!) I very nearly ordered a pasta dish, which my sister eventually got - she said she thought it might have ‘overwhelmed’ me with the portion, and she was probably right… I am determined to have pasta very soon though! Aaah such a lovely evening :) yes I had my little moments of anxiety during the meal with fat contents and what not, but mostly it was just lovely to be out, away from revision, eating lovely food, being with my family - restaurant meals used to be our ‘thing’, we really did go out quite a bit! I also remembered that I wouldn’t be having my usual dinner ‘afters’, so needed my main meal to be a bit higher cal than what it would be at home. Feeling happy, not guilty :) because restaurant meals are there to be enjoyed, just like old Sophie would!