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I dwell in possibility

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Diabetes gifs make me smile ☺️ I guess it just reminds you that you’re not alone. A lot of them may be an “inside” joke thing, but I get quite a few questions on my blog asking about diabetes, and felt this could perhaps offer a small insight! The test strip one is particualrly pertinent - it drives my mum CRAZY 🙈 Oh and the one about the “child being high”… Try the sentence “I’m high so I’m going to give a shot” out of context! 🙊

Diabetes gifs make me smile ☺️ I guess it just reminds you that you’re not alone. A lot of them may be an “inside” joke thing, but I get quite a few questions on my blog asking about diabetes, and felt this could perhaps offer a small insight! The test strip one is particualrly pertinent - it drives my mum CRAZY 🙈 Oh and the one about the “child being high”… Try the sentence “I’m high so I’m going to give a shot” out of context! 🙊

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Gooey, chocolatey, moist as you like (John Torode phrase!) Waitrose choc chip muffin.
I didn’t want a mini muffin that I’d have to bulk out with nuts, a yoghurt and so forth. I didn’t want a “clean” muffin made out of courgette, egg whites and some other ingredients I can’t pronounce. I didn’t want a bar that “tastes like the real deal!” Well at least now if I ever do, perchance, have one of those bars, I can make a fair comparison 🙏 I’m not slamming anyone else’s recovery choices here. This is about my own.
It is the simple fact that I wanted this. It isn’t about “needing” it, or “needing the calories. It isn’t about “deserving” it, or deserving this type of food. 
I just wanted to write this so that I can look back and remind myself, but also maybe help others to remind themselves too.
It is about not needing, or deserving - it is just wanting. At the end of the day, this is all the justification that food should need.

Gooey, chocolatey, moist as you like (John Torode phrase!) Waitrose choc chip muffin.
I didn’t want a mini muffin that I’d have to bulk out with nuts, a yoghurt and so forth. I didn’t want a “clean” muffin made out of courgette, egg whites and some other ingredients I can’t pronounce. I didn’t want a bar that “tastes like the real deal!” Well at least now if I ever do, perchance, have one of those bars, I can make a fair comparison 🙏 I’m not slamming anyone else’s recovery choices here. This is about my own.
It is the simple fact that I wanted this. It isn’t about “needing” it, or “needing the calories. It isn’t about “deserving” it, or deserving this type of food.
I just wanted to write this so that I can look back and remind myself, but also maybe help others to remind themselves too.
It is about not needing, or deserving - it is just wanting. At the end of the day, this is all the justification that food should need.

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Letting go of “skinny”

I can’t remember the last time I bought a coffee without calorie info, and didn’t ask for skimmed milk.
Until today. Starbucks queue was huge, then mum noticed that next door was a new independent coffee shop Society Cafe. We walked in, mum asked if they did iced coffee to go… Yes! This is actually quite a rarity for independent coffee shops.
It was a simple question of saying yes. A simple matter of taking out that ‘s’ word from my order. That simple task of ignoring the red topped bottle as the barista picked up the green…. Speaking of, isn’t the green traffic light the “coveted” symbol on food labels?! ☺️
That latte was lovely. No, I don’t know the calories - or for me it’s more the fat content. All I know is that these daily whole milk iced coffees have been a revelation for me.
I do not need to order a “skinny” anything. I need to embrace all the small moments in life. I am a coffee lover and you can’t put a price on non-chain coffee! Sometimes it’s these small things - makes me realise a) how I am making progress b) how I am really starting to twig on to what this crazy life I want to embrace is all about. Letting go.

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Live. Laugh. Love.

Sometimes I feel we say those words, I do at least, and never really gage their true meaning. It’s a big ask, isn’t it? For it is never quite that simple.
How can you open your heart, clear your mind and empty your lungs completely? How can you possibly be all those things synonymously, when life throws so many curveballs your way?
Maybe you will never be able to in its entirety. However, in some form it is possible. It is a picture, a light that you can hold ahead of you and say: wouldn’t that be wonderful? To live. To laugh. To love. Perhaps not all at once, and perhaps not all those words at face value.
You can have moments where that laughter explodes from your lungs like a firework. You can feel that split second overflow of your heart as it sears with a passion, compassion and devotion no words can ever capture.
You can live. Oh my goodness, can you live. The opportunities, possibilities… they are as limitless as your mind chooses.
Your wings are only as fragile as the mind which tells them they cannot fly.

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Smile and the world smiles with you 😊
Oh and check out what I found… My old Disney straw!! 😍 with my new invention of green tea lemonade, oh yes - pushing boundaries people!
BBQing again tonight, probably won’t eat until 8pm but that’s okay. Life goes on and you go with it, because you are part of it 🙏 Salmon on BBQ is so good though, and currently attempting to make sweet potato fries… Let’s see what happens!

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Went back to get some classic magnums while mum was at the till

After far too much skirting of this particular bucket list item, I will do this.
Oh and we basically have a cupboard full of bars…. And Mum still feels we haven’t bought enough! What I ideally want is some kind of dense shake or drink, as it will be so hot snack food will be so claggy… I don’t even know if that word exists! But hopefully you get my drift 😌 I did get a “protein milk” to try from boots, on the very kind shop assistant’s advice, so will try that… Flipping expensive though! Ideally I would just have iced lattes haha ☺️ so starbucks if you could make non-perishable drinks by next week, that would be wonderful 😘

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Anonymous asked: Um a TW has nothing to do with pump discrimination or whatever you seem offended by but the fact that you are posting a full body pic when you know you are not quite healthy. Whatever.

The tone of this message says a lot, and weakens what you are trying to say as a result.
I never pretended to be healthy; I talk about the “need” for weight gain. But that is not what this post was about. I have spent 19 years never wearing a bikini, because of stomach scars and the visibility of my pump. It’s nice I finally have the courage to do it again.